Dark thoughts

Hmmmm......maybe its just because I haven't been sleeping well but I have been wondering whether I'm doing the right thing .....which is mad as I've been yearning to travel for so long!! 

Perhaps because I'm going on my own. 

I know I need to be wary of getting conned or robbed etc....or worse.

Perhaps visiting my parents was the problem as they are both terrible worriers ....like me but worse, my Dad was funny, reminding me about 'Bangkok Hilton' ......God a really old TV mini series - 1989 - where a girl (Nicole Kidman) gets imprisoned for smuggling drugs in Thailand....I do remember watching this as a child and it definitely stayed with me - oh the horror! - I was terrified by it at the time. But it didn't stop me travelling in my twenties 

Mum sent me a text yesterday:

'🕷️when in Australia look out for the small red back spiders they are highly venomous we were told to always check the toilet seat 🚽x '

Mmmmm thanks 🙄 so that set me off reading about the funnel Web spider and all these other scary creatures that cab crawl into you shoes etc....giant centipedes and ants that spit folic acid at you.

After reading about the floods in Bali, I started to imagine earth quakes and tsunamis.

I did hear that Jakarta is like a giant sponge and is sinking.....a bit like Venice.

I suppose it's normal to have these feelings.....everyone has them right? ....its not just me I'm sure....